Coping up with insomnia...

I have problems sleeping so i pretend to watch TV until i hear the roosters crow in the morning. As i was channel surfing at about midnight last night, i came upon Brokeback Mountain (HBO). I wasn't able to start it, (yeah guys i missed the first kiss...) but for lack of anything else interesting to watch i kinda turned my attention to it and watched the rest of the feature... and fell in love with Heath Ledger!!! Dang!!! I killed the roll of tissue paper by my side. I was trying to cry silently but failed, bawling like a baby i was.. The movie affected my state of mind, sort of putting me in a trance for the rest of the day. It left a heavy feeling in my heart that i can't shake off. I spent the day trying to exorcise what i feel but it is still here. Now I'm trying to write the feeling off. Maybe it'll work .. Maybe not... Last time i felt like this was when i watched Titanic.. Bigat sa dibdib... Weird!